Educational Solace

What's more obscure than the obsession with education?
The obsession of isolation?
For some reason its refreshing
You learn life lessons
//Avoid the complexities of others//
//No aggression//
Some say its oppression
How I so tightly control my environment
But that's it...right there, it's mine
How I live....to me?....it's fine!
To me....yep to me....it's somewhat divine

I guess the flash of a car
The life of a star
A drink at the bar
Traveling fro or far
Or a hood rep like Lamar
Me?   I happy who I are

Or who I've become
More so who I will be
See this time alone......This focus of mine
It creates a better me

Now don't be mad
This is not to compare
So don't be scared
//No need to compete//
Because I compete with
None else but ME
See my barometer is I
I don't focus on other guys

But what I do now
Will create a better me
So some seek food
Some break rules
Some like money
Others chase hunnies

I understand the worlds not flawless
But education is my solace

Exit World, Alone, Outerspace, Freedom, Happiness, Confidence, Ultimate understanding, clarity, satisfaction, smile........mild connections....connect

So very Close

2 AM still at it, the thought and focus of completing this task is often frustrating when things don't come together. When it does, it's a euphoric joy. I often wonder...am I doing this because of the money vested, time spent, dedication to my future, possible status and perception, maybe it's just my innate stubbornes. Despite the reasoning, I'm dedicated...and tired....hoping for the finish line.

I'm often asked why I post this online...not for recognition...not even really for anyone else..I use it as a tool of accountability and motivation.

Pulling it all together

The best way to start off a Friday, took my nap, a little tired, but I'm sure the power will kick in.

JMP Focused...

Lost a day of productivity, trying to get it back!!


A great source for information on how you use and execute the functions through JMP are below. The 1st is the student handbook, the second is the User Guide. The handbook provides great info on how to run all the reports. Golden..learn it yourself, don't waste money. It's a powerful tool.

JMP Software links
http://www.jmp.com/academic/pdf/421242_jmpse_guide.pdf
http://www.jmp.com/support/downloads/pdf/jmp8/jmp_user_guide.pdf
http://www.jmp.com/support/downloads/pdf/jmp_stat_graph_guide.pdf

Focuuuss, focus...focusss...ok and GO! //Literature Review//

OK, this should be one of the easiest chapters to get straight..but...it's not...lets see what I can do to block out distractions and get this puppy done...small steps, small steps..

Priorities over partying

Work during the day, party at...nope, I'm focused..up early getting my education on.

Lord, you up there? Um...let today be the day that I finish it all!!!

Work coming up this weekend, hope I can get this done so I can focus on other things in life, I'm oh so close right now! 1 Chapter and a review left..pray for mehhh!!


=^.}

Focused on my Target ...Happy Valentines..

Lot of plans tomorrow, lots of stuff to do. Trying to get focused early to hit my target, I can't even sit down!

Taxes done...what's next? Guess, guess........

It's 3AM, are you sleep? I'm up...ok, I was sleeping at 3PM but we all have different sleep cycles right, I have found my most productive cycle, and I'll roll with it, in the end, it's all about productivity!

Brain is blazing!

Brain is burning, sometimes hot...sometimes...eh...just a little warm..back to the lap, so much to do...so much to do!!

Parade being Rained on...

I was really., really expecting to be alot further than I am now...sheeshhhh, my marathon is taking wayyy too long. Oh Well, Research Methods, next up.

Vamperism in slow motion

Don't you hate when you take a nap with the intent to get up and get stuff done...then you take a nap longer than planned.....and even worst, one you do wake up, you're still sleepy..that's me...Brain may be a little smoked.

BUT

Ready....set.....GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm in love....again...Dissertation...me and you babes!

Oh great coffee of mine, why did I ignore you all these years, you know I'm in love with your right? Right? I do, honestly, maybe it's infatuation because it's new...Well lets ride this train and see how long it lasts..

Reopening Crates

After years and years faced with this study, my mentor has directed me the wrong way...I've decided to change my whole study and refocus on my original framework. Change:

Quantitative---> Qualitative  ---->   Mixed-method(nested) ----) Quantitative

So hopefully this all works out well and I can finish this soon. Main focus is to reestablish symmetry across paper.

Then::
1. Reincorporate some of the previous theories
2. Review literature methodologies
3. Create new hypotheses
4. Conduct and analyze quantitative data
5. Display the findings
6. Pull it all together with my implications, recommendations, and conclusions

So, I guess I know WHAT I need to do...sigh...I guess I'll go do it..

(In)succinctness of study time

One of the greatest gripes I have with online studies is the access and response of mentors/instructors. A simple question that could be answered in 5 minutes can take hours of research. Wasting time, energy, and depleting motivation.

It would be nice to say, "Eh, I'll skip this portion and go meet Dr. xxx tomorrow, he'll be in class". You send out a mystery email or phone call and pray for an expedient response. I'm surely alone in this journey.

Sleep Cycle

So much focus has been put on trying to sleep at the "appropriate" interval. Now, I'm going to sleep when I get tired and waking up when I'm ready, why not?