Dual Directions

I often feel like I'm running out of time in life. I try to fit as much as I can in the small box of life. I've taken on the pursuit of a web-design certificate. So far, I enjoy the class, I'm learning a lot, and it gives me almost a daily feeling of achievement. The problem is it often places me in a dual direction quandary (does that make sense?). Probably not. I debate which one to work on some nights. The webdesign provides me instant gratification and the dissertation is a tenured process.

Tonight I chose the webdesign route. This program has 87 modules...so a lot to learn and I want to get it done AND learn so much as quick as possible!

 

See the finish line

It's been a long journey and there's still much to do. This process is financially breaking me and I need to get it DONE. The good part to all of this is I see the finish line. It may be in the far distance and I'm sure that there will be hurdles on my way there but I see it...I see it, yes I do!

 So now as I go through the many IRBs, IA, and administrative challenges. The good part is despite the previous ambiguity of the situation I've slowly moved forward. My friend prophesized that I would be with doctorate by the end of this year...I think I believe that...yeah...I believe that!!  I have been put in the drivers seat where I don't have to really wait for approval to get some things done. I guess that doesn't make me the driver, maybe I'm able to see the drivers test before I drive...yeah, that's it. I can see the test questions. So, like I said, I think I can see this finish line. I've stretched out and I'm ready to RUN!!! More importantly, I'm ready to finish and take a knee!

 

Breakthrough

Everybody, watch out, I think that we have a breakthrough!!! After months of replication and alteration, I have approval to do the pilot study from one organization. I feel confident that the NCU IRB will approve me also. So now I'm getting ready for flight. Its always a blessing to feel the light of hope, especially when you're in darkness. So, as I wait for my school approval, I begin this weekend my work on the pilot survey's and focus my sights on the revised IRB application for the final study. Pray me luck!

Duplicity in the city of my mind

The land of duplicity. Seems like I have to repeat the same steps over and over and over again for multiple agencies. Why can't I just move forward? My Chair said today "I applaud you for your persistence". I don't have much of a choice. I just want to be done. Its hard trying to take control of a car that you're not driving. I guess all you can do in life sometimes is push and fight and hope that the enemy quits, falls over, or you knock through to where you're trying to get. My mind is tired, so many changes that I don't even know what's going on sometimes. Another submission today...still at IRB...sigh...Death to duplicity!