Back to the Drawing Board

So after all these years all this time making it up to the end of this journey, I discover that I've made a mistake in the selection of my tool. One that renders the entire study invalid if I continue. Why was this not discovered, why was this not caught, who is supposed to be guiding me on this journey? I'm filing a formal complaint but ethically I can't continue in the same manner as before. So, to start the dissertation over? Ugh, that's vicious and I'm definitely not looking forward to it at all but I've spent alot of time and money. My next mission will be to skew my study which meets the proper requirements...eh, we will see...

Book of Sadiq

**Validation and Perception**

Book of Sadiq: Proverb 21

We all seek validation through others. This validation is sought personally and professionally. True validation is internal to oneself. This validity derives from constant self-analysis, self-reflection, and of course self-revalidation.  

Explanation of Proverb:

OTHERS will often tell you who YOU are as a person but only YOU have the ABILITY to understand who you truly are and how to best improve yourself. Take note of the good as well as the bad and try to be better each day.  

Back to the Future? Really?

So after years and years and years of going through this process, I get a new dedicated adviser claiming that my last adviser was crazy and she would help me complete this thing. Within a few weeks it went from..

"I reviewed your paper and we are going to get this done"

to
"I think you should change your study to focus on gender differences"

to

"I don't know how confident I am in this study I think you need to pursue a DBA"

to

"I think we need to relook at the whole dissertation and how we got here"

What the H#ll?? I swear sometimes, Soooo, now I'm in the process of putting together a formal complaint with the school and the accreditation commission. We will see where that goes, so for the last few hours, I've been creating a timeline to show how we got here and I'm not crazy!!  I can't believe how much time, energy, money, and the extent of sacrifice I've put into this...sigh..

And yet this is life, back to the lab!!

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Oral Defense

Tonight's a late night, yet another long journey possibly going to reap nothing. I'm working on my oral presentation but I don't have much faith in the approval of the dissertation. Years and years of work and thousands and thousands of dollars down the drain. Oh well, lets go get it!

PMP?? Project Management Professionale

As the constant struggle, battle, WAR continues for my final dissertation approval, I have began my pursuit of the PMP, 1 week course2 thick books, charts, graphs, website, software, etc...are all used as my tools of study.

PMP Cert is for project management professionals with a bachelors or greater, 3 years project experience, and 4,500 hours of leading and directing projects (documented). I'll have to make it through this class and also pass a 2 hour crucial exam. The exam is so bad that the standard for passing it is ONLY 61%...uh..yeah, yikes. So, no more time to waste, lets see how this pans out. 

*Dissertation update

The process has been so discouraging that my school adviser has decided to resign from the school, what does that say for me, who knows, who knows, yet another struggle, yet another challenge..

New Year, same challenge

 

I submitted my paper in 2012 and it's 2013 with new changes; I've been at this since 2006-2007 and it's wearing on me but I've had a good break, so I'm back at my grind, not ready to quit. All my changes are minor now but still need to be done. So before I go back to work, I'll dedicate time now to fight for another submission. They will not wait on me, I'll be waiting on them.

I'm trying to work on my prioritization this year. It used to be so solid...now...yeah...I'm still at it!

Rejuvenated - Be Blessed

I don't know why, I feel better and I'm ready to go at it again. I took a day away from the world and had to reflect and refocus. I'm going back to the old school me....accountability.. No sleep until I'm finished or pass out. Everyday that passes, is gone, never to return again. Maximize your time, minimize your whine.

Seeking Gas

The whole dissertation process has turned me off, I should be done, I'm over the struggle, the satisfying multiple gods, and making sense out of the senseless. It's been years and I have ZERO motivation to continue. Latest news is that they fired the reviewer that denied my dissertation. I was told to continue the path that I was on previously and make the minute changes for submission. I'm off for a few days, nothing else to do with my life so let's see what progress I can make tonight. I really need to find a way to work on my mood. Holiday season has me down...way down...anyways...ready, set...let's go!

Waiting for these years and hours of time to pay off.

Not a quitter but...

Been hacking at the Dissertation..kind of..not really..kind of discouraging. I really can't stand it. I've lost ambition and drive but I've invested a ridiculous amount of time and energy. I also think that the results and study are very valuable to the Asian American community. I've been on this pony for years and I think I've worn through my chaps..