Baby bites

There always seems to be a "catch", so after weeks of waiting to get response for my dissertation, I'm told that I need to revise the paper because yet another "new standard" has been established an the last paper that was approved had "unrecorded errors" and I should "acquire the services of a proof reader....this is normal protocol in academia". I swear I test the validity of this educational establishment. 

Doing research on the school, this seems to be a norm within NCU. After thousands of dollars out of pocket and multiple complaints (with no response) from the faculty, I'm at a loss for what to do other than to quit or keep pushing. I honestly don't see the end but refuse to quit. 

I read a book last week that said, "many of the greatest goals never get accomplished because they are considered too great". His solution was to bread it down into small pieces and try to enjoy the process, find joy in even the most grueling processes. So, that's my step...ONE chapter a day and that will be my goal for now...baby bites

DP is queue

Well, my DP is now at the top of the queue, so I should get a response real soon like, I'm hoping I don't have any BS this time. My Sallie Mae loan has ran out, my MGIB has ran out, my Post 9/11 is gone, so it's all out of pocket and I still have a mountain of debt because of it. Is it worth it? Will it be worth it, we will see. For now, I'm focused on completion. 

What's even worst is I'm eyeing a new instrument. The CE-6 actually correlates better than the MSQ but do I really want to readjust the entire paper? Will I have to get my paper reviewed all over again? Questions-questions..waiting for answers. For tonight, I say goodnight!

Benchmark

So, continuing this DM to DP to DP transition, I got off work early and I was SUPPOSED to start early. Instead, I ate, cleaned up, and slept. For some reason, I can only focus at night, sad but true. I guess it's the night owl or maybe the vampire in me.

I'm trying to create an anchor paper in order to just begin setting regular benchmarks. An update is due tomorrow...or I guess today technically. My goal/benchmark/objective is to complete the entire submission today. 

I thought all I had to do was change my study from past to present tense but after further review, I need to use the MSQ-9 and not 15. I guess it's not a need but I think its the most modern and efficient version to use...oh well...

Generational Motivation

Motivation comes from various sources. I went back home to a family reunion and had the opportunity to meet so many of my family members. It was nice to reconnect and find out the progress everyone was making. My father is was pursing certifications on the weekend and my mom was out assisting with community projects. This just reinforced the fact that I need to continue the good fight. I'm up at 2 AM riding the motivation from the generations before me. After staying up all night and finishing the CP, I was told I need to work on the DP, this is a good thing but still hours of my life once again wasted...so ready, set, let's go!


Yawwwnnn!!

Punked out....comeback

Well if you don't succeed, try try again, correct? I wasn't able to complete barely anything last night. I took a step back and reevaluated the process. It's hard to build a mansion and then be told to break down everything you have into an apartment. Soooo, this has lead me to reorganize and rereorganize it. Sometimes you have to go with the gut, that's the plan. Goal is the same as yesterday. Plan of action...

1. Reorganize references
2. Truncate Literature Review (while retaining previous information)
3. Rewrite Lit Review section in a more succinct manner
4. Begin Methodology

Lets see how this works..

Opening Weekend Goals

OK, I'm back on my grind, I've taken my early day nap and it's time to get back on the pony, I have a nice little ride to make. Although teetered on going out and having fun, I've decided to stay home and trot a little bit further down the road. So, I have my bottle glasses, a frosty adult beverage, and some tunes for the night. Tonight's goals:

1. Complete Brief Review of Literature
2. Begin Research Methods

Then I may pop in a movie for the night...

Unconventionally successful

Although unorthodox, I enjoy doing my work late at night, it's dark, its quiet (until I turn my music on), and most people are already asleep (no distractions). I continue day 2 of staying focused..I've developed a new concept paper and now I just need to get it all together. My goal is to establish nightly benchmarks.
Tonight's Goals:
Introduction

Reset - Restructure - Rewrite

So the battle continues. Due to a two year "discovery", I can't use my tool and there is nothing I can really do about it. I spoke to the creator of a new tool and I can now begin my restructuring. A lot of work ahead of me but there is no motivation at all. I have Motivation but I'm not motivated. I'm trying to knock out the small benchmarks and milestones but it's all so very daunting. Nonetheless, I'm here at this computer, everything I need is somewhere here and I need to begin restructuring my entire dissertation. I have over a years worth of work to redo a paper that has been done over 3 times over...(if that makes sense).

Slow motion

Everything is going so slow right now, I'm waiting for my response for reimbursement, waiting for the class to start, waiting for the owner of my instrument to respond and waiting to wait to wait. I I've planned to take today out to actually focus on the last paper and make some of the required changes to make the change from PhD to DBA. Let's see how this goes. Always mentally tired and I'm not even doing much..

Get my money right...

So, I've officially changed my program from the PhD to the DBA. I hope this expedites the process, I am mentally drained and just want it DONE! As I switched programs, they quoted me 4x's the normal tuition, I should get this all squared away and be able to move forward on my journey. 

In addition, I've changed my survey tool and will now have to redistribute. It's pretty discouraging but part of the process. The tool is actually easier and may save me hundreds of dollars from the previous. I'd be willing to pay to get this thing over with and move on with my life. All in all, it is what it is and I'm still fighting the good fight!