Should have went with the African-Americans

As I sit here on a Saturday afternoon...I reflect back on the selection of my paper. If I would have chose the African-American population, I would have been done, complete, finished with this degree years ago. I've questioned myself, should I start to focus more on the ends than the means? The lack of motivation is at a monumental level, I just want to be complete.

I've just recently reacquired the services of my dissertation editor to see if she can expedite the process, we will all see. I'm willing to pay whatever to get through this, I feel like my whole life is currently on hold!

Coke on a Monday Morning...

Something about the transition from Sunday night to Monday morning that inspires me to get my stuff together. I've been up since about 11PM getting it, I don't think I'll sleep this morning (I slept during the day). It's crazy how things clear up on this day and seem to fall in line...to top it off, I bought a McD's coke so I can add to my new focus of healthy habits! My goal by Wednesday night is to complete the overhaul of Chapter 2, I need to work one section at a time...constantly..Coke, a few vitamins to focus and a RipIT!!

Seeking motivation

The organization of sources turned out great...a couple of weeks ago but I have not been able to find any motivation recently. I really need to get this going so I'm up at 5AM trying to scratch up any wave of progress that I can. Tonight...Today's goal will be um...well, I don't know. I guess it will be just to get started, so...let's get it started!

Organizing Sources

I must admit that I am an organizational freak but have not taken the time to organize my sources and references. Well, I've taken time but not to the extent that I need to. I have over 6 years of extensive research discussing mentoring, the Asian population, career advancement, promotions, leadership, etc that's semi-organized. Tonight I will get it all in a logical metadata centric database. I'm seriously about to go into beasting mode. 

It's 1:20 AM, I plan to stay up until it's time for work or my body says "no more sir". Although I'm doing these late nights, I've implemented workouts and movie watching to keep me sane. Let's see how tonight works out for me. I think I'll begin making notes on my page instead of through FB.

Ready....CHARGE!!!

Well, I said something about taking it slow and one chapter at a time, but guess what, that is not me? I guess I'm just a go getter. I got my rest in early after work and now I'm up and at it. I'm more productive wearing myself out and recovering later..so, this will be the plan for now. Maybe no sleep, probably no sleep..we will see.

I feel motivated for the challenge but frustrated at the process. I know that I really need to swallow my pride and get back to some of the basics. It's been so long that I have forgotten some of the college writing styles and grammatical rules from almost 2 decades ago, so I'm going back to the basics.. I think much is in gods plan and I don't know what it is for now..maybe it's to grow in another way. Until then, 1:44 AM and I'm at it!

 

Baby bites

There always seems to be a "catch", so after weeks of waiting to get response for my dissertation, I'm told that I need to revise the paper because yet another "new standard" has been established an the last paper that was approved had "unrecorded errors" and I should "acquire the services of a proof reader....this is normal protocol in academia". I swear I test the validity of this educational establishment. 

Doing research on the school, this seems to be a norm within NCU. After thousands of dollars out of pocket and multiple complaints (with no response) from the faculty, I'm at a loss for what to do other than to quit or keep pushing. I honestly don't see the end but refuse to quit. 

I read a book last week that said, "many of the greatest goals never get accomplished because they are considered too great". His solution was to bread it down into small pieces and try to enjoy the process, find joy in even the most grueling processes. So, that's my step...ONE chapter a day and that will be my goal for now...baby bites

DP is queue

Well, my DP is now at the top of the queue, so I should get a response real soon like, I'm hoping I don't have any BS this time. My Sallie Mae loan has ran out, my MGIB has ran out, my Post 9/11 is gone, so it's all out of pocket and I still have a mountain of debt because of it. Is it worth it? Will it be worth it, we will see. For now, I'm focused on completion. 

What's even worst is I'm eyeing a new instrument. The CE-6 actually correlates better than the MSQ but do I really want to readjust the entire paper? Will I have to get my paper reviewed all over again? Questions-questions..waiting for answers. For tonight, I say goodnight!

Benchmark

So, continuing this DM to DP to DP transition, I got off work early and I was SUPPOSED to start early. Instead, I ate, cleaned up, and slept. For some reason, I can only focus at night, sad but true. I guess it's the night owl or maybe the vampire in me.

I'm trying to create an anchor paper in order to just begin setting regular benchmarks. An update is due tomorrow...or I guess today technically. My goal/benchmark/objective is to complete the entire submission today. 

I thought all I had to do was change my study from past to present tense but after further review, I need to use the MSQ-9 and not 15. I guess it's not a need but I think its the most modern and efficient version to use...oh well...

Generational Motivation

Motivation comes from various sources. I went back home to a family reunion and had the opportunity to meet so many of my family members. It was nice to reconnect and find out the progress everyone was making. My father is was pursing certifications on the weekend and my mom was out assisting with community projects. This just reinforced the fact that I need to continue the good fight. I'm up at 2 AM riding the motivation from the generations before me. After staying up all night and finishing the CP, I was told I need to work on the DP, this is a good thing but still hours of my life once again wasted...so ready, set, let's go!


Yawwwnnn!!

Punked out....comeback

Well if you don't succeed, try try again, correct? I wasn't able to complete barely anything last night. I took a step back and reevaluated the process. It's hard to build a mansion and then be told to break down everything you have into an apartment. Soooo, this has lead me to reorganize and rereorganize it. Sometimes you have to go with the gut, that's the plan. Goal is the same as yesterday. Plan of action...

1. Reorganize references
2. Truncate Literature Review (while retaining previous information)
3. Rewrite Lit Review section in a more succinct manner
4. Begin Methodology

Lets see how this works..