Burning Hot

I rarely post twice in a day but this IS IT!!! I'm burning hot, if I cursed, I'd be cursing. The changes that I've made a long time ago, I have to make them all over again. I doubt my advisor is doing it on purpose but it's happening. I don't know if this is an institutional problem or what but I'm going round and round and round and I'm getting hotter and hotter!!!

Its almost 5 AM, I've been up since 2 AM and I can't wait to call first thing in the MORNING!!! I want answers. I'm always so worried about making people upset and their strive/reaction. I began this program in 2006, my concept and dissertation proposal was completed in 2008. Advisor, committee, IRB, etc approved it. I distributed my survey, collected the results, analyzed it and submitted my paper and now I'm here. It is 2014!!!! I don't know what to do, this is wearing on me so, so, so bad and I still don't know where I'm going!!!! Someone pray for me because I'm about to lose it. I work so hard in life and sometimes, things just don't seem to pan out!! All these late nights, early mornings, reading, adjusting, is getting overwhelming...sigh...ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's like I'm on an emotional roller coaster. Not like I don't have enough going on in life. I was hoping that I'd be able to go back someday and feel joy for this major accomplishment and how far I've come. I don't see it and why?? I DON"T KNOW!!