The edge?

I think I've reached the edge...I mean the end..of the Chapter that is. After weeks of revamping, I think tonight could be the night. I have my coke, energy drink and yesterday I slept for almost 12 hours. What does that mean? Yup, I'm going to try not to sleep tonight, focus, focus, focus. So, hopefully I'll reach the edge of this dissertation and
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to the next chapter of this paper. Let's see how this goes. Although I have the fact that I've written approximately 3 dissertations, I am really learning how the process works. Will it pay off, will I use it later in life? Who knows but why not look at the positive side? That's another one of my new attempts. I am a negative ninny, why? It's how I survived and stayed protected. Sometimes you have to have faith and hope; I'm more of a prepare and anticipate...the worst that is...

All in all, this false sense of security by thinking the best will come of things feels..um...okay...I think. My father used to say "suck it up and drive on". This has crept in the back of my mind for years. Take the punches and continue to fight but sometimes.....WHEW!!!

As long as my intent is good and I live in good conscious of my actions, things turn out in the long run....it's always the short run that I'm worried about. I'm going to let some of these "runs" go though. OK, back to the batters box. 10:28 PM on a Thursday...